The joys of motherhood are life's sweetest rewards. I have had the experience of both the pleasure of becoming a mother and the anguish of losing a baby and the motherhood that comes with it. So I hold being a mother so close to my heart that sometimes I have to remind myself to step back. Having a child does not make a woman a mother any more than owning a piano makes a person a musician. The status of motherhood is conferred in the progression of life from infancy to childhood, to adolescence, to adulthood. While I am stuck in different stages of this progression this is what motherhood means to me:
Taking home a tiny human that comes with no instruction manual and sacrificing sleep, food, and self to make sure that little person has all of it's needs met. And NEVER in my life putting as much of myself and my soul into protecting and caring for that baby.
Motherhood is earned in the state of exhaustion caused by a sick child laying in your arms in the middle of the night crying and not being able to do anything but hold them close to you and pray. In the tears you cry when you have to watch your baby get shots.
The joys of watching all the firsts, seconds, thirds, fourth ect. Everyday is a joy watching them just be little kids and enjoy the small things in life.
The feeling of that small little head laying on your shoulders with little arms wrapped around your neck is the closest feeling to heaven.
Second best is waking up in the morning to a baby asleep in your arms and the sweet smell of milk blowing in your face while they peacefully sleep.
Having your second grader bring home a book he wrote and discover it is all about the fun things he likes to do with you.
Hearing the words, "Mom, you are my best friend. I love you"
Hearing little voices when you wake up in the morning calling for "Mom"
Getting faces painted at the zoo and the proudness and happiness displayed on a five year olds face because he has now become spiderman.
Having a REALLY bad day at work and turning over my clipboard to see three little boys smiling at me and find myself smiling back.
Seeing any of my kids cry because another child has been mean and knowing that my heart is breaking just as bad for them.
Dedicating a whole day of fun with all of them and just being spontaneous. Doing whatever their hearts desire because right now, I can do that once in a while. And Im selfish because I know it makes me happier than it makes them.
I have not progressed yet from childhood to adolescent stage and I pray hard that I will be just as happy as I am right now with my three little boys. I like to think that all of my little boys looked down from heaven and said, "That is going to be my mom" Because I know that before I left heaven I saw four little spirit boys playing and said, "I'm going to do my best to be a good mother to those boys. I am going to love them with all of my heart and will take the tears with the happiness they will bring me. "
Taking home a tiny human that comes with no instruction manual and sacrificing sleep, food, and self to make sure that little person has all of it's needs met. And NEVER in my life putting as much of myself and my soul into protecting and caring for that baby.
Motherhood is earned in the state of exhaustion caused by a sick child laying in your arms in the middle of the night crying and not being able to do anything but hold them close to you and pray. In the tears you cry when you have to watch your baby get shots.
The joys of watching all the firsts, seconds, thirds, fourth ect. Everyday is a joy watching them just be little kids and enjoy the small things in life.
The feeling of that small little head laying on your shoulders with little arms wrapped around your neck is the closest feeling to heaven.
Second best is waking up in the morning to a baby asleep in your arms and the sweet smell of milk blowing in your face while they peacefully sleep.
Having your second grader bring home a book he wrote and discover it is all about the fun things he likes to do with you.
Hearing the words, "Mom, you are my best friend. I love you"
Hearing little voices when you wake up in the morning calling for "Mom"
Getting faces painted at the zoo and the proudness and happiness displayed on a five year olds face because he has now become spiderman.
Having a REALLY bad day at work and turning over my clipboard to see three little boys smiling at me and find myself smiling back.
Seeing any of my kids cry because another child has been mean and knowing that my heart is breaking just as bad for them.
Dedicating a whole day of fun with all of them and just being spontaneous. Doing whatever their hearts desire because right now, I can do that once in a while. And Im selfish because I know it makes me happier than it makes them.
I have not progressed yet from childhood to adolescent stage and I pray hard that I will be just as happy as I am right now with my three little boys. I like to think that all of my little boys looked down from heaven and said, "That is going to be my mom" Because I know that before I left heaven I saw four little spirit boys playing and said, "I'm going to do my best to be a good mother to those boys. I am going to love them with all of my heart and will take the tears with the happiness they will bring me. "
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