My mothers day gift was the return of my voice!!! I have not had it for almost a week. I missed it so much. Tonight I was hugging Jaxson and singing "To make you feel my love" to him and he smiled and said, "mom, your pretty voice is back again" I couldn't be upset or offended because I had a VERY ugly voice last week. I love singing (only when I am alone or with my children who love me no matter what, oh and I have been known to sing songs to my patients at work) and I have missed my morning concert in the shower before my day begins. My favorite song to sing right now is the song in my music player....adele Rolling in the Deep. Or my song with my BFF Tainted Love. Oh, and I can ALWAYS sing Grease. Even have a video stashed away of me and my high school friends singing Grease songs.

My heart is heavy right now as I am missing someone so much that it hurts. It's easy to forget and put away feelings during the day but at night your dreams unleash your real emotions. Funny how you can forget how someones voice sounds or the smell of their skin but one dream can be so real and vivid that smells and sounds come back to you. Memories are a blessing and a curse. Even with the heaviness of the longing, I would never erase the memories.

I got hugs from all three of my boys today so this day was a good one for me.