School will be rearing it's ugly head soon and I am trying to mentally prepare for my last semester!!! YOO-HOO! I cannot believe I made it this far. In less than 6 months I will be a Registered Nurse. A scary but exciting thought. As much as I am not looking forward to taking notes and exams, I am looking forward to school again because I am anxious to do clinical. I really like the work that I get to do on the floor. I cannot wait to be a nurse working independently on the floor. I remember at the start of nursing school looking at Jaxson who was only 9 months old and thinking, "Wow, he will be three years old when I finish. That is so far away" Now, 3 years later, I wonder where the time went.
When I received my patriarchal blessing I expected my blessings to be surrounded around my role as a mother and about my family because the only goal I had in life was to be a mother. I had no desire to gain an education beyond high school. When I received a blessing that was centered around my need to gain an education and profession I was very disappointed. I spent years ignoring the blessing and even started having my children and living the role that I wanted. Around the time that Connor was 6 months old I felt the need to start taking pre-req's for nursing. I started part time and took a class here and there while still enjoying my life as a full time mom to Connor. When he was two years old, I felt inspired to have another child but also felt that I needed to immediately start my nursing education as my pre-req's were finished. I am ashamed to say that I was not obedient and put off applying to nursing school for several more months. I cannot explain how I felt during this time but I just felt like something was not right. I prayed, went to the temple and finally felt like it was time to do what I had been guided to do. I finally went for my interview when Jaxson was 8 weeks old and was accepted into the school that I am attending now. I do not know what God has in store for me with this profession. I do feel like I missed out on some of Jaxson's younger years and do not understand why the Lord requires this of me. Maybe this was nothing more than a test of my obedience? I cannot say for sure but I do love my children and I do love the profession that I have chosen. I pray that if nothing else, one day I will be able to teach my children the lesson of obedience from my experience. And if not that, endurance because I have been on the verge of quitting MANY times but I stuck in there.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Nursing school
Posted by Shannon at 7:02 PM
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That's interesting because I've had similar experiences with law school. It doesn't fit into the plan that I expected of an LDS mother. I have missed some things. I didn't want to go to graduate school after my bachelor's degree. And here I am. I remember having confirmation that I was doing the right thing while I listened to Pres. Monson talk. Even before he talked (I was studying for the LSAT) I felt overwhelmed with peace and direction. And then his talk focused on how we shouldn't live off of two salaries, but that women should pursue education. Bingo. So, that's what I'm trying to do, and though I don't know why law school was necessary, I've learned not to question but to do. It's been a ride.
Congratulations on your last semester! I'm so excited for you, Hannon, and admire your determination and endurance. This semester is my last for my BS in Biology. But, crossing my fingers and praying daily, I hope to get into the accelerated nursing program and be done Sept 2010. I agree with you about how hard it is missing moments and not being there for your kids, but I also agree with you that you have to follow personal revelation and gaining an education is important. Way to stick to it and pull through!
I could use a little direction here. I want to go back to school and work but so far I am staying put. I am glad that you are liking the field you have chosen. That will make all of the difference.
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