Changes are so hard but so is being unhappy. After 12 years we have decided that our marriage is no longer lasting and have decided to start making seperate lives. So many emotions have gone into this decision and now our priority is doing what is best for the kids. We want to make them feel loved, safe, and keep their childhood as intact as it should be. Standing at this point, you look back at all the what ifs, should have, should not have, ect but in the end, it's just a time that came and now all that is left is to pick up the pieces. I am so terribly sorry for the things my kids have been exposed to in the past two years because of me and all I can wish for out of this life that I have is that they will always know that I loved every single one of them more than I even loved myself. I would give them my life if they needed it.