Grandma

This weekend would have been my grandma's birthday. I thought about and missed her today. She is still the greatest woman I have ever met. I learned so much from my grandmother growing up. She was an example of long suffering, patience, and unconditional love. Grandma loved all of us despite our weaknesses. I cannot imagine how hard it must have been for her to have three small children at home, an husband who was an alcoholic, and being responsible for being the sole provider for the family. I never heard her complain or even talk bad about the situation she lived in. She was so much fun. I spend many weekends sleeping over at grandma's house with my cousins. Grandma would buy us cookies, soda, and candy and let us eat as much as we liked. She would play games with us, ride bikes with us, and she NEVER said no. I'm not kidding when I say that she never said no. She let her grandkids do anything. I even remember her letting us drive her car before we had licenses. My grandparents had cement flooring in their basement and me and Skyler decided to turn the basement into a skating rink. Grandma let us spray paint all over the walls and hang up a disco ball.

My grandma was at my high school graduation and she urged me to continue on with my education. Two years later she was at my first college graduation. She attended my first wedding and a year later hugged me as I filed for divorce and told me I was destined for better. She was there for the birth and death of my first son and that was the first time I saw my grandma cry. She hugged me and promised me that one day I would have another child. Four years later she held my newborn son Connor.

I miss having her here for all my milestones now. I wish she could have been here to see me graduate from nursing school as she was the one who told me that I could be anything I wanted to be. She died when I was pregnant with Jaxson and I feel sorrow when I look at my boys, I wish that they could have known her. She was such a light in my life and I will always remember her cheerful laugh.