Spring Break

I am officially on my last Spring Break. It is amazing to me that after 5 years of school I will finally be finished in May. I don't know if I ever really expected to finish? Everyone is commenting on how I have achieved so much and what an accomplishment it is but I just don't feel like I have finished what I am suppose to. So I ask myself, what is it that I should be doing or that I should do? I don't know. Maybe I am just getting the jitters about being finished and the responsibilities of being a RN.

I do feel a little bit of sorrow. When I started nursing school, Jaxson was 11 months old. I look at my three year old now and I miss all the times that I didn't get to hold him and hug him because I was in lecture or clinical. Although, I do have many fond memories of the patients that I cared for when I couldn't be home and I just pray that somehow I made a difference in their lives.

I am feeling VERY homesick. It has been two years since I have been home and I am just aching to see my family and friends. I am resisting the urge to run home right now because I want to wait for the warm summer months in Utah. I LOVE Utah in July. 100 degree temperatures and the spirit of patriotism in the air. Watermelon, ice cream, going water skiing on the boat, cool nights sleeping in the backyard, and the beauty of the sun rising in the morning over the mountains. This is very much what I imagine my heaven will be like.