I wish I could go back in time to this day. My Christmas dance program. I was a candy cane. Looking at this picture reminds me so much of all the feelings I had as a child. I was happy, felt loved, safe, and carefree. I just enjoyed life and my loved ones. I didn't know disappointment, heartbreak, or STRESS. I don't remember my mom yelling at me as much as I yell at my kids (she only had one kid for 10 years though and I am battling 3). And my mom always had a built in babysitter. My grandma would often just show up after she got off work and take me for hours at a time. Another reason I wish I could go back to this night. To spend just a little bit of time with my grandma again. It is hard to miss someone as much as I still miss her.

My friend told me that she started doing three small things everyday. Just three little goals that are easy to accomplish and that are stepping stools to making better habits. I liked the idea and was so inspired by her that I am making three of my own.

1. Pray at least once a day with my children.

2. Do at least one load of laundry every day so it doesn't all pile up.

3. Make my bed every morning.

I have decided to have Connor and Jaxson make a list too and help them work on their goals so they get into the habit of planning things and getting them accomplished. I will make Carters list for him..

1. Cut down to three bottles a day (that is pushing it, he is totally addicted)

2. Only hit Jaxson once a day, twice if he really needs it.

3. Only scream when the situation calls for it, which is often because Carter is the boss (so he thinks)