I can see the future

I found this on my old blog. An entry from October 6, 2006. Scary how accurate it is for my life now!


My mind is made up....sort of October 6, 2006
I swore after having Jaxson that I was done having kids. I didn't want to be swollen and pregnant again and have a crying baby latched to me 24 hours a day. I begged my doctor to tie my tubes at my 6 week appointment and he happily agreed to do so.........after I had waited a year. Well, my baby is turning 1 in a month and I am thinking crazy thoughts. I laughed at the look of terror and dismay on Jade's face when I announced last night that I will be having another baby..........in three years. I have this crazy desire to have another child when I am finished with nursing school. Lately I have loved watching Jaxson, Connor, and Jake play and just don't feel like I am ready to be done yet. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? I had to start back on prednisone this week because I just can't kick this poison ivy. One of the best side effects from this medicine is that it gives me this incredible amount of energy. I stayed up until 1:30 AM last night studying and got up at 7 AM with the kids. After taking my wonder pills I felt as refreshed as a woman who had slept 12 hours. Not only did I have my three boys during the day but I was babysitting 4 other kids ranging in ages 2 months to 4 years. I was superwoman. I commented to a friend that this medicine is greater than crack. It gives me the energy that a crack addict gets from crack but I don't have the psychotic disillusions that they suffer from. After pondering my recent feelings to add another child to this crazy home, I have decided that this medicine must be worse than crack. And that I must be suffering from hallucinations...........especially when all the other kids went home and I was left with just my two boys. Jaxson bit me and Connor did everything I asked him not to do. I realize the power of this medication. It must be sedating me during the day or just removing me from my reality. I just cannot shake this desire to have another baby and my mind is made up..........sort of. We'll see when my wonder pills are gone.

Jaxson

Jaxson makes me laugh daily. Connor was born with a more serious personality while Jaxson, well, he is a clown. Lately, his favorite thing to do is go out in the backyard and climb up into his playhouse. He will then yell as loud as he can over the fence "GRANDMA!!!!" Until the elderly lady living next door to us comes out and talks to him. Yesterday I picked him up from school and he was bursting with excitement when we pulled into our driveway and "grandma" was outside in hers. He flew out of his booster seat, rolled the window down, and yelled out, "GRANDMA! It's me, Jaxson. Hi Grandma! Hey, where you going? Chuck E. Cheese??" Because our lovely, retired neighbor Doris has nothing better to do but go to Chuck E. Cheese.

Tuesday I dropped Jaxson off at Kindercare. It is always harder when mom does it because there are tears and sobs to go back home. I promised Jaxson if he went to preschool that I would come and pick him up early and take him to Chuck E. Cheese. I left him there and returned at 1 to pick him up. I was SHOCKED (still am) to find that at 1 PM everyday, Kindercare lays down mats and the kids take naps. I almost fell over on the floor in disbelief when I saw my own child, who stopped napping at home when he was 16 months old, laying on his mat sleeping. I thought for sure he had to be dead. I had to go and listen for breath sounds. I walked back out to my car just dumbfounded because not only was he napping on Tuesday but they told me that Jaxson naps EVERYDAY!!! I am convinced that a full investigation needs to be held because the only logical explanation I can come up with is they are drugging the children. If Jaxson is napping,

they are putting something in the chicken nuggets there.

Pregnancy

Unlike others, I do not like pregnancy. I do not feel bad about making this statement. I HATE feeling the changes my body goes through during pregnancy. The hormones, the acne, the weight gain, the nausea....ect. I'm a lunatic as it is, throw in pregnancy hormones and I am like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. I know that some women feel their best during pregnancy but that is not me. I feel like a slug that someone has poured salt over. I feel as if my body is failing me. I can't always do the things that I want to do. Throw in the fact that I get as big as a whale and that concludes that pregnancy does not agree with me. Pregnancy is miserable but I just have to

remember that it ends with the miracle of this:

and the miracle of this:

Halloween preview 2009

Jaxson truly is going to be our performer. When I took him to the costume store I expected him to pick out a superhero costume. NOPE! I'm almost afraid to tell you what his first choice was. Ok, it was a hotdog. He wanted this big hot dog costume (thank goodness it didn't fit) so, he chose to be a clown. I couldn't talk him into anything else. He puts his costume on and dances all around the living room. Connor only insisted on being something with a sword.

Goodbye Mr. Pumpkin Man

This is what happens when you leave a dog home alone all day. I put the Halloween decorations out and Dallas decided that he didn't like this particular decoration. So, he did what his ancestry instincts told him to do, he ripped the thing to pieces. Imagine my surprise after working a 9 hour day and opening the door to this mess. Dallas is lucky he has a six year old that loves him so much. I had just forgotten about what he did to my couch. OH, I didn't tell you what he did to my couch. Exactly one week ago I came home to discover that Dallas decided to try to dig a hole on my couch cushion. He succeeded. Lucky for him, my cushions can be flipped around so the hole is concealed. He won't be so lucky if he decides to dig again.

The correct way to eat a cake

We LOVE Fall!

Halloween

2006

2007

2008

I love Halloween. Every year it is so exciting for Connor to go and pick out his costume. It wasn't until posting these pictures that I realized that poor Jaxson has had Connor's hand me down costume every single year. I'm making a resolution to let the poor kid actually get his own unique costume this year. (He was thrilled to be Buzz Lightyear and Spiderman though) I promise you will not see Jaxson in a Batman costume this year. Since I was in school the previous years, I missed trick or treating for three years in a row. I'm so excited to be able to go this year and watch the kids run from door to door. I'm even more excited to eat up all the candy they collect. I am trying to convince the boys to be Mario and Luigi since they are Wii freaks. Jade can be Bowser and I can be Princess Peach.