The first real signs of life

I haven't documented anything positive about this pregnancy and I realized today that I needed to start keeping some sort of note about what is going on. (And I will NOT be posting pictures of my stomach anytime soon! Sorry Tiff)

One of my favorite parts of pregnancy is when you first start feeling those little movements going on inside you. Even having an ultrasound and seeing that little person doesn't make the pregnancy real to me. I don't start reflecting on what is really going on with my body until I start feeling those tiny little taps and flutters. I have been feeling little flutters and taps for about 2 weeks now but while laying on the couch today I felt that first distinct kick. Nothing like the kicks that lie ahead but enough to say, Yep, there is in fact a little person in there.

Connor didn't move around much during my pregnancy. I didn't know what real kicks felt like until I was pregnant with Jaxson. I could only get Connor to move around while I was in the bathtub. Sometimes the feeling of the water on my stomach would be enough to make him stick a foot or an elbow out enough that I could rub it to let him know that I was in fact a person outside of where he was growing and not just a voice. Jaxson was VERY active. He moved around alot. Somedays to the point that it hurt. (I should have known from his early activity that he was going to keep me busy) I could put my hand on my stomach and he would kick and kick and kick like he was trying to kick whatever was touching him off! Funny how much I can reflect back on the activity my boys displayed during pregnancy and reflect on how much it really signified their personalities.

And I remember those little kicks and BIG kicks that Connor and Jaxson gave me and I look at them now, still in little bodies but growing so much and feel satisfaction. No matter what I do in my life, no matter what happens to me, I know that I contributed in giving my sweet little boys life and nothing will ever bring me more joy. And despite feeling sick with this pregnancy and complaining that I am turning into a whale, I am so blessed to once again be experiencing the joy of growing a little body inside of mine that I will give life to and enjoy watching grow. Nothing in life could be better.