Life is moving fast. A little too fast. Jade asked me the other night if I am feeling overwhelmed yet.......I think I answered a little too aggressively because he looked scared. Between work, school, Connor's school, soccer practice, soccer games, early intervention for Jaxson, registering Jaxson for school, cooking, cleaning, occasionally remembering to feed Archie, cleaning Archie's cage.....the list could go on and on, I am feeling very overwhelmed. I do not like feeling this busy because as a mode of survival I tend to live off of adrenaline and I begin moving at such a fast speed that I forget to just stop and enjoy the precious moments that are going on around me. I have come to cherish my mornings with Jaxson and today I vowed to just watch him. I want to just watch his little movements and remember his toddler sayings. His favorites right now are: "Hey, what you doing?", "Say sorry", "Oh no" "I need a kiss" "Where??" and "I need McQueen" I have found that the moment I potty train my children they suddenly lose all signs of being a toddler. I begin to see them as little people or little men. While helping Jaxson dress this morning I begin to really look at him. I was amazed at how old he is looking. He is almost lost all of that "baby fat" and has started developing that skinny little body that Connor has. I began to ask myself when time started moving so fast and made a resolution to make it slow down because my baby is not going to be a baby soon. The hardest part of going back to school has been missing the boys. Even though I am only gone a few hours before they go to bed, I just miss being with them. And while I miss them, I also realize that it is wonderful to get that time to myself to pursue something that I truly enjoy doing. Is there a balance? In my case, yes but sometime that invisible scale dips lower on one end than the other and I just have to make some quick adjustments.