The boys 2006-2008

The greatest joy of my life has been watching my boys grow. Each day their unique personalities mature and I see their individualism and I feel so proud to be their mother. I look back on the picture of 2005 and I remember how hard it was to have a wild 3 year old and a newborn but I will always remember it as the best time of my life. During the potty training, endless diaper changes of a newborn, crying, naptime, snuggle time, crying and more crying I fondly remember watching the love develop between these two brothers. The hours before I went in to deliver Jaxson I cried because I was so afraid of how this new baby was going to change my relationship with Connor. I was afraid that he would resent me and not love me or feel that I didn't love him anymore. When he ran into my hospital room and I saw the look of surprise and disappointment on his face to see me holding Jaxson my heart broke. He refused to make eye contact with me for weeks while I was holding Jaxson.

Finally the ice melted and we were able to convince Connor to hold his new brother.

It has been a love/hate relationship since that day. I take pleasure in every day that I get to watch their relationship grow. I hope they grow to be best friends and that they will always have each other to love and depend on when they grow older.