Today I am thankful for Fall. It was a beautiful morning and the leaves were falling from the trees and dancing across the road. The trees looked beautiful. Some of the leaves actually look like they are on fire their red color is so vibrant.

A dream is a wish your heart makes when youre fast asleep.....my heart is missing someone I loved dearly and dreaming is the only way I see this person anymore. I wonder if they still love me?

Today I am thankful for agency. I am thankful that I can make my own choices and be free to decide for myself what I want in my life and how I want to live. I get to decide every morning when I wake up if I want to stay home or go to the store. Simple decisions about life but I am thankful for the freedom to make them and the agency that has been given to me.

Cookies

Tonight was Carters first time making homade cookies with mom. He was so excited to put all the ingredients in the bowl and turn on the beaters. The cookies turned out really good too. I'm grateful for this memory. And the cookies were peanut butter chocolate chip. YUMMY

Carter is such a special little kid. He has so many people around him that love him and want him to be with them all the time. I know how hard it is to be away from him and miss him so much and I know that others feel that way too. I hope he grows up knowing how much he was loved and wanted by so many people.

I am grateful for a soft bed today. It was a very busy day and I am enjoying my soft bed. I know that there are people in the world that dont have a bed to lay in at night and I appreciate that I have one and it is so soft.

I tell my kids everyday "I love you" and today I heard the sweet voice of my baby say back "Wuv you" It made my whole day special. Carter is really starting to talk and I love hearing his little voice.

Today I am grateful for a weekend ahead of me that I get to spend with my family. Tomorrow we are going to the aquarium for Jaxsons birthday and Im grateful for all the smiles that will be burned into my memory tomorrow. We read a book tonight all about sharks so we are ready to see them all up close and live.

Today is Jade's birthday. The angry bird cupcakes are for Jaxson's birthday party at school tomorrow but I thought they turned out so cute so I put a picture. I am thankful today to be a mother. I LOVE doing things to make my little boys happy. And they make me so happy everyday. Jaxson said to me this morning, "mom, did you have a good sleep last night?" He is my thoughtful little guy. Carter is so lovey right now and says, mommy, mommy, mommy, and runs to my arms. I love the feeling of his little arms around my neck. And Connor is so much fun to talk to right now. He is finally starting to get old enough to have adult conversations with. My little boys are so sweet and told me yesterday that they want a new brother or sister more than a new house or car. They love each other so much and it makes me so happy to be apart of their lives. I remember a time in my life when I thought I would never have the opportunity to be a mother. I was devestated because I wanted a child of my own so badly. With every single one of my boys, the minute they were born and placed in my arms, I felt God clearly tell me how much he loved me. I know that I talk about my kids alot on this blog and brag but I truly love them all more than anything else in my life.

We had a great dinner out without kids tonight to an excellent Italian restaurant. It was nice to sit and talk without little voices interrupting. It has been a rough year for us, but we are still holding on and I am grateful for a kind, forgiving husband. I haven't always appreciated him and I have taken him for granted but I truly love and appreciate how he cares for me. He surprises me everyday with how strong he is and what a great man he truly is. I am a very lucky girl who came close to losing the only friend that truly loves me and gave me such wonderful little boys. I will never take that for granted again.

Look unto me in every thought, doubt not, fear not. D&C 6:36.

Today I am grateful that I am never alone.

I spent the day making birthday cupcakes for Jaxson. 24 angry bird cupcakes in all. This weekend will a family celebration of birthdays!

November is a month of Thanksgiving. Everyday I am going to blog about my gratitude.I am grateful that I have been given a second chance at life. I realize the many different ways my life could have been without a forgiving family. I am so grateful that I didnt get stuck with worthless and that I have a chance to start over and be even better than before.